a little somethin'

If we never speak again, you will always be a part of me. For the better. Mostly.

I miss you and think of you still.



With love.


caption: shooting stars

Boo

In the last few months, I have been getting great feedback on my written work for grad studies. 90% of these were written whilst intoxicated. My path to success is now clear..be loaded more.

Qwijibo

To the whistling man on the bus today: if I wanted to hear a full song performed in whistling, I'd go to a whistling concert.

Just because you can doesn't mean you should.

I've had a bad week. I realized today that I am friendship handicapped. I don't make friends easily, and I don't keep friends.

This made me feel very lonely.

Important Lessons for Today

Don't fight pettiness with pettiness.

Success doesn't preclude incompetence.

If someone is crazy, establish boundaries.

I'm Not Going Anywhere

So here I am, 6 months into what is delightfully termed 'Graduate School', and I'm not anymore decided on my fate or future than I was when I started. All I really want is to go on a really long road trip to the ocean.

And I can't help but feel that the world is falling apart anyway, so why bother worrying?

Passenger Seat

Sitting at my window watching the summer thunderstorm, listening to the rain and loving the moment. Pure bliss. And a lot to look forward to when I leave the moment behind.

Also currently loving this. And reluctantly them too, I guess.


(wild lupines)

Werewolf

Before I launch into my long-overdue, under-anticipated re-launch of ye ol' blog, I would like to take a moment to ponder out loud on why I think so much of my past writing has been just depressive drivel. I think it's because I have always been afraid that if I'm ever anything other than sad, I will become normal, and normal is lame. I'm terrified that without the comforting refrain of the great all encompassing darkness, slit-your-wrists in the bath depression, et al, I will be forced to admit that I'm just a plain-jane, square-o.

Well, turns out all that sad n' shit business was lame, and square-o after all, and I'm going to just talk about whatever the hell it is I feel like talkin' about at that goddamn (!) moment. I will henceforth make every attempt to diversify, diversify the drivel! (Sad may still make an appearance on occasion...just to remind myself that it's me I'm blogging about).

So now the topic of todays post: Art School, or Professional School? Back in January, I applied to several programs, including studio art at my long-held dream school / nemesis OCAD, naively believing that fate would make the decision by letting me into one program, thus keeping me from having to accept the responsibility of choice. To my great disappointment (re: excitement, from an ego-perspective), I got into all four programs. Only two really stand as front-runners...OCAD, and grad-school for Landscape Architecture...the latter being a manifestation of the former in more 'adult clothes'. In an extraordinary act of cowardice, I placed a deposit on the grad-school a day before the offer expired to delay my decision a paltry 2 weeks. Now, two days before the deadline to accept the OCAD offer arrives, I find myself still undecided, waffling, floundering in a sea of possibilities and possible missed opportunities. I have dredged the very bottom of the ocean of alternate solutions to my problem, including asking a magic 8-ball on the counter of a beloved diner. As a last resort, I turn to the anonymity of the internets. It's a last ditch effort, a final gasp from one who knows she is about to drown in a flood of competing hopes, desires, etc. etc. So give it your best shot, cast your nets or lines and see if I bite. I'm curious about the bait, maybe some direction.

I'm hoping for true North, but I'll take South-east and I'll fucking make the most of it if that's what it comes to.

Wish me luck.

(Picture is a little botanical-conical delight from a weekend of pain and pleasure on my hands and knees in a dirty bed of pre-flowergarden).